Oh So Boring…

After my pity party post last night, I woke up this morning and decided that my fear was not going to be my guide.  Not today.  Not this week.

So, I’ve resolved myself to not worry at all about jobs, the economy, my future, none of that for one week.

I will be more confident for my friends.  I’m sure they are tired of hearing me whine about life and all.  I flinch when I think of the “why me” I have inflicted on my Twitter and Facebook friends. So this week, they get only a bright outlook from me.

I will be more confident for my family.  They are never anything but positive and supportive of me.  I should return the damn favor for once.  I owe them more than that, but let this be one small step in that direction.

I will be more confident for her.  My light and my love…she is never anything but confident in me. For me not to feel the same about myself diminishes her.  I will not do that.  Besides, this week is a stressful one for her.  Preparing for an interview is something that needs no distractions.  So this week, I will be there for her.  I will be her rock this week.  I will be there to boost her confidence, if need be.  I will be her jester, if she needs a laugh.  I know she has done and will do the same for me.

I will be more confident for me.  Selfish, I know, but it’s the kind of selfishness that is good for you.  For one week, I will feel good about myself.  I will feel good about who I am and what I’ve accomplished.  I will trust that my skills will find a place in this economy.  I will accept that my job is *not* who I am.  I will learn that I can do this.  I will be better than I was.

I will be confident.